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2010-05-31T20:48:00.002+08:00

its been so so so long since i last blog. haha. rather busy for sch and work.Somtimes feel like dying.. today i went to mahatan wif the silly boy,we had seafood pasta and fish and chips not forgettin our favorite cesar salad (: (: silly always treat me , i think i owe him too many treats le.HAHA!!

Mixed

2010-03-07T01:10:00.002+08:00

Now I realised how hard some money is earn. With backaches,leg pain, muscles pain..
New assistant manager came in today, no good impression of her.Demanding,stirct and I duno how worse she can be, cause today it still e first day I work with her. Imagine how hard my life would be. Today was the first day only, and I can already felt the horrible side of her. GOd!

hmm.. but I will try. If she is not satified, ANYTIME I could LEave (:

Ashley gal came back from surgery. ANd I miss her so much! poor gal got to wear her e collar, she is crying.I know its hard on her.But for her own good, we shall not remove her e collar until her stiches were remove.

Not at all a gd day, work is giving me nuts nuts nuts..

TIred

2010-03-03T23:08:00.002+08:00

Currently trying out at Fish and Co. ITS NO FUN.What to do when I hav so many things in mind that I want and I want to get it by my own. SO i guess I jus got to hang it there. Phew, ask me do this do that !

sometimes I felt that you still did not understand me. How difficult could it be jus tell me your plans in everyday life. I dun wan to be vexing over you cause I had enough in the past.

Its been a tired week.........

ANGRY

2010-02-03T14:38:00.002+08:00

I know that you may not be a girl although you were.

BUT then, pls lay yr hands off.

I jus dislike people to touch my property ya?

pls mind yourself .

愛不單行

2010-01-04T15:15:00.001+08:00

愛只有簡單筆劃卻比想像複雜恨安定愛變化
我愛過幾個人也被愛過幾遍卻還是沒能將幸福留下

愛是不可数的嗎為何我還相信
它不是獨行俠我在等一個人

在等我的永恒告訴我愛不單行別害怕

我在等一個人在等我的永恒告訴我愛不單行相信它

ITS FRIDay

2009-12-05T00:10:00.002+08:00

Hello mao,
I have a busy weeks and last week was sick so i din post . today after sch, went newton with dar. We had oyster. haha. I had been craving for it like months! :P and finally today i got it. Happy! and we had usual prawn noodle.Ice kacang was our loved too.

A fun day pitching dar :D

Sick

2009-11-23T17:58:00.002+08:00

NOt me! but dar.. he felt sick. Terribly. HIgh fever for days ,throat,cough.
went doctor alredy but still no improvement. haix..

he is sleeping now and everytime I touch his forehead, its hot.
Hope he recover fast.

God bless.

craving for more sleep!

2009-11-14T00:42:00.002+08:00

hello mao, finally here to blog. Been very tired for this week.. =..=
i went dar house today and yesterday (thrus) we watch 2012 ! hee X)
nice nice.. was a very long movie ar.. 2 and a half hours.. but was nice la!!!

raining like no nobody busniess. I like the cold feeling but i hate it when i have to walk along the streets with wet feet !

Recently, dar and me got new names! we got for ourselves.
企鹅爸爸，企鹅妈妈
means penguin daddy and mummy.. haha!! (:

Bike and rain causes us a little disturb.
dar does little things tat make me feel blessed.

wee_wei_jie@hotmail.com said (12:02 AM):
Dear I am totally sorry

mixed

2009-11-08T02:38:00.002+08:00

yesterday meet sayangs together with our boyfrens to vivo as we celebrating sheirin sayang birthday!! it was fun and nice. dar carry and wanted to throw me down o.o and sheirin sayang was bully by us, we plan to throw her in the pool at the root top there. haha.. we all very noisy. but it was nice coz its been rather long since we went out.Thanks sayangs :)

dar already sleepin and i have plenty of thoughts here and there..
I guess i want too much already. Maybe because I lost so much during that period that NOw i wanted it back all. I wanted so much from him. And i felt so demanding .....

anyway, i had dinner at dar house. we brought hokkien mee and fried rice together with a can of pineapple and rambutan desert :) oh ya! chips also. the pringles!

I jus wanted back that feeling, When I was the only one . just me and you.

wants

2009-11-01T22:01:00.001+08:00

we want so many things in life.

but, how much can we get each time?

2009-10-29T10:28:00.001+08:00

felt so sick

Bored

2009-10-17T22:07:00.003+08:00

alright, im super duper bored. And i hate getting bored.Entertain me pls.

This feeling is sucky!

I hate being bored !!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn it!

who is there to entertain me?

gosh!!

WHY?!

2009-10-17T00:14:00.004+08:00

hello.....mao.Finally its friday and finally im free to blog. well,sch has started and class was fine.

Just that every morning when I reach interchange, my heart pump faster than usual.Im afraid and I DONT WANT to face it.Not jus interchange, whereever the sch..that this shadow jus annoy me so much. And there the problem comes again.

Mood swings=dun feel like talking in class=affects grades=afffects dar=affects us

you know the worst thing is? im so unlucky man! whereever i go, i will jus see the thing.THE MOST MOST MOST UNLUCKY THING IS me and dar sign up for a workshop.There is different dates for us to choose. AND GOD!!! TELL ME!! why I HAVE TO FACE IT!!! WHY CANT LEAVE this shadow LEAVE MY SIGHT?!!!! why must the shadow follows me? so many dates why must it be the same. 2 hours in the workshop. I bet its gonna be a ugly one!! 2 hours seems 2 century to me.

I hate this me . especially when I am jus not brave enough to face horrible things.

maybe others i can.But when it comes to relationship ,i get influence and i jus cant be brave.

找回自己

2009-10-11T15:08:00.002+08:00

原来世界永远在陪伴我的人
原来就是自己
人来人往交换了遭遇
东找西找只要找回自己

原来生命永远没放弃我的人
原来就是自己
想来想去想念最初
那股勇气
我记得一路只想做自己

感伤让我懂 ,快乐很简单~

??

2009-10-11T03:57:00.000+08:00

wat hav i got to say?

Trying

2009-10-07T22:49:00.002+08:00

hello mao.. hurhur, these few days not so gd. cause i got sch stress and of coz today jus saw pple that will change my mood straight. people who ruin my life. yeah.
i had lunch with sayangs for the past few days. love.

2009-10-04T02:01:00.002+08:00

speechless

心跳

2009-10-02T03:47:00.004+08:00

人的心是一颗很神奇的东西，可以带来无限的喜悦，或无限的伤痛.....

Busy

2009-10-02T03:14:00.002+08:00

hi mao, this week has been my busiest week coz im concern about my mum and im taking care of her. Im glad that she is now at home recuperate and i hope everything goes well.

so today,bro fetch me from home to SGH to bring mum back home. she looks fine and we both are less worry for her. Bro got her bird nest to drink :) shes sleeping soundly now. i suppose these few days she hardly rest.

sch is starting soon and i feel so werid. Both gd and bad memories are there inside RP. :/ well, god bless me hurhur ...its jus feel uneasy and its 4 months im still trying to get out of it. Reopening of sch does not excites me coz i can imagine myself feeling so tired every morning and restless spirit in me. Im flood with sch stress,relationship stress, perhaps even friends. oh my oh my.. i jus dun wish to start sch... anyway, i still got a long long way.
inside bro car, listening to familiar songs.. going through the tunnel at the expressway back home.Lots and lots of memories are flashin through..happy and sad ones that i once went through.I knew i got to be extra strong each time when setbacks come looking for me.
Sometimes i jus wonder, why? why things jus happen ? i was thinking.. is it planned already?
hmm.. gd question with no answer =x
i tell myself, hey ! u got to be stronger and stronger! lijuan should be a strong one that will not defeat by setbacks! yes im sure i can :)

im starting to be afraid of that feeling..a feeling which i cannot really describe. i jus knew , it is smth like suddenly by one day, the world changes. ya. thats how i feel. its like disaster that happens too sudden and im not prepare for it.Thinking back, im surprise i could survive till now.. haha!!

thank you pei qi

2009-09-30T00:52:00.001+08:00

thank you gal for helping me putting my photo up:) haha! i was blur and cant do it! thanks thanks pei qi !!! :D

2009-09-29T01:40:00.002+08:00

im tired,i freak out.. this is worse........i hate this.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUN READ THIS POST PPLE! IM JUST VENTIN MY ANGER HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DUNO HOW TO BE HAPPY! I DUNNO! IM FEELING FREAKIN OUT.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANT STAND THIS. !!!OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Outing

2009-09-27T03:09:00.002+08:00

hello mao! I had lunch wif dar and sis. (chicken rice).Dar came over and wait for me to prepare to go out!Went to had outing with gals.(Ivy,carol,siew chuen,hui min,yun xian) .Been 2 years since we last met? haha. Lucky we dun feel werid and everything as per normal.

i was the last to reach :( sorry gals.Headed to Xing wang to had lunch. And off we go bowling!

hard time dividin into groups. Finally we had two groups. Group A : me,carol,siew chuen.

Group B : the rest of the three:D and we challenge of course. Group B wins :(

Headed to dian xiao er to eat. yun xian ,siew chuen,hui min eat only.:) the rest drink water. LOL.coz we are not hungry. it was super duper noisy.THE F1 !

walk walk walk to mrt. hui min,siew chuen and me alight at kovan. I met dar to eat dinner. Off they go, we end our day. I hope this outing will be continnue... not 2 years again pls :)

DAr and I ate nasi lemak:) nice :) i took 82 and dar ride. He was faster and i could see him on my way back inside bus. went to his house. we watch F1 , and he sent mao back home.

it was a nice day. i love it! thanks gals and dar.

sick

2009-09-23T18:41:00.002+08:00

mao, im not feelin well. Got flu these few days. A slight fever too.

Dinner

2009-09-22T01:28:00.002+08:00

hello mao, this is a late post =x sunday i had dinner at Alice place,which is dar's cousin house. My first visit to her house :) it was beautiful. I saw lots of seashells! LOVE LOVE!
i met dar at amk interchange and we took a bus 269. her house is at amk ave 6.
Alice bro wsa there too. So is dar mum. It was a nice dinner at her place and her cooking was fantastic.

Alice bro drove us home ...and i went to dar house to watch tv. i went home after that.

Away

2009-09-20T02:27:00.001+08:00

i wanna rest, away from here.

let the picture do the talking..

Majong session

2009-09-20T01:32:00.002+08:00

hi mao, today sis and thom friends came over to play majong, Deris and bernard. Around 9 plus, Deris got to go as she need to meet her friends. So i replace her instead. It was a nice game. I think i won :)

and today i felt sick,sore throat is coming and fever. Im feelin cold and not well now.throat is irritating. i guess im going to fall sick. gosh, i dun wan.

Dun say sorry for the times you left me home ,you was on the road and I were alone

Dun say sorry for the times that you had to go

Dun say sorry for the fact that you did not know,That I were sitting home just wishing we Could go back to when it was just you and me

Dun say sorry for the times you would neglect

Dun say sorry for the fact that you are not aware,That I can’t sleep at night when you not there.Because you are on the streets like every night.

Dun say sorry for the things that you did not say

you are gone at least 5 hours,what time will u be back?

tired day

2009-09-17T01:43:00.002+08:00

hello maomao, yesterday dar suprise me with porridge .came and knock on my door. was surprise that he came wif porridge to share with me. a feeling that its so shocked and sweet that this silly boy jus came here..

today we went to chinatown, with dar parents.. had a long shop inside OG. I choose a black and green collar shirt for dar. haha. and his parents exchange OG points , choose a pig plate for me. its real cute. tmr i take pic i show it here. we shop for very long coz really dunno what to buy that is enough points to exchange. so basement up and down a couple of times. =.=
haha. overall, still a fun day.

next, parents went home. Dar and me headed to toa payoh to get my contact lenses. Right eye was 425 in the past, now was 500 o.o and left eye still same.thanks goodness! haha!

my legs are tired now..

加油，杨丽娟

2009-09-13T02:08:00.004+08:00

mao.. i happen to listen to the song by 许茹芸，美梦成真 which is the first song use in this blog. PPlE go listen.. nice nice.. and the next song also nice. And the next next song also nice.(泪海) really. take some time listen.. haha

i got nothing to do so i introduce u all songs.. sry ar.. for those that could not understand chinese
:(

hope my 美梦成真 too. i feel like cutting my hair =x waste money. but i like to cut hair! i think my dad will say i siao o.o

i jus wan myself to cheer up a little more. hmm.. i must !! feel like going to the beach to fly kite, let the wind blow through my face,listenin to the sound of wind and waves,breath deep in the air .. i like all these simple things yet FOC .

so now i feeling a bit calm than yesterday..

BAD

2009-09-12T01:50:00.003+08:00

mao...

listening to canon D while writing this post. nice nice .. i had got a picture of me sitting near the big sea ,letting the wind blow through my face, i felt loved by the surrounding .
If everything could turn back, i wished i was not in this planet. maybe others, where i could stay as happy as i could, laugh at little things, eat whatever i wish... nice nice picture~~~

felt love listenin to canon D ya..love in this music, not others. slowly, i take a deep breath. i think more challenges awaits me to tackle it. Shall need lots of energy. Bless me.
i have not been feeling good..its time to wake up. i thought this year should be a fine year. But still, things are hard to predict.

today i watched Blood ties. rated 6.5/10.
i need to get out of this country to break free myself. each time when im upset, my stomach playin with me as well. I had stomach ache half way through typing this post =.=
if i can have brainwash, im sure i will be happier. =x bad thoughts. hmm..maybe maybe~~ my dreams !

maybe im just not good enough for you.You can have your choice since its your life. Since you choose not to tell me the truth. I will not ask. I dunno why is things like tat each time. Alright, blame it on me , im too petty, im too narrow minded,im too childish, im not mature..
yes yes yes. Its okay for me really. im getting sick of hearing sorry. How much i really mean to you? maybe im worthless.Im sick of quarrel, im sick of shouting at you when you turn yr back away, im sick of keep asking you this and that like a inspector, im sick of myself at this state .
Why am i going through all these? How i wish i was you?

the past is always so beautiful, bad memories suck big time.

想回到过去

FLood

2009-09-10T22:34:00.000+08:00

Flood me with happniess
Flood me with smile
Flood me with CASH
Flood me with my favourite things
Flood me inside the pool
Flood me inside the spa
Flood me inside the Sea
Flood me with my favourite food
Flood me with my favourite music
Flood me with many many more holidays
Flood me with lots of stars
Flood me with wind
Flood me with moon

Lastly, Flood me with love

BOred

2009-09-10T22:27:00.000+08:00

Life getting bored. Entertain me pls.

是我不配和命运作对

at home

2009-09-10T01:06:00.004+08:00

hello maomao! today din go out..jus stay at my home and dar house. ya.. today blog will be short and sweet :) i had fried rice plus cheese fries today and i got Honey ice blend too !

dar came my house to play wif gal. and i have to say.. gal can make me happy as well as angry!

at times shes real cute but when she poo anywhere and chew yr things. YOu will get MAD!

i still remembered she chew my ezlink card before =X so so mad abt that!

Nevertheless, i still LOVE her!

a simple day at home and dar house. We spend time watchin tv also. well.. i jus hope things get better each day :)

I LOVE ASHLEY GAL

Jia you ba!

2009-09-06T20:41:00.001+08:00

hello mao mao.. yeah.. i was alone and i flip through things and saw the history of what they wrote.. yeah.. again my heart is just like somebody uses knife and cut through..bleeding bleeding.. ya.. seeing yr love one say those words to others is really heart break. if ya din experience it, u wun know how is it feel like..in the past, they even discuss abt going to each other house? hmm... i duno how should i react? ya.. its all over as a lot of gd frens told me.. but i really dunno if im able to trust him again . im really afraid of falling.. from young till now.. im real real scared...

i dun wish to quarrel with him over this cause he will say its over already.. yes i know its over. but how am i suppose to know that history will not repeat again? lost and confused..i know i should not say all these.. but at times i think. was it a very wrong mistake at first to be together? maybe we are too young then.. maybe we are unsure of our feelings.. maybe we dun even know what does Love really really meant?

I dunno if i had make the right decision to forgive him? some say yes some say no.. frankly speaking.. yes.. i want him to have a severe punishment.. some may say im cruel.. yes.. im cruel over and over again.. cause im always the one being hurt and im always the one being cheated? why? im not good enough, yes i know. but i thought when two pple are together, they are to like each other flaws? i dunno. i knew all the while i try to please him.. brought him games ,clothes.. give him ear piece etc.. i know.. i get angry easily, but does that give one enough reasons to do wrong?

who should i blame them? fate? myself? i find this a really tough question that i dun have answer for it..i know he will read this post.. but i really need to write it out to release my annoy..

this time,dun give me promises , assurance, even commitment. im afraid to hold them.. from here i learnt to be strong, be independent. i dun wish to rely on others anymore. i lost trust in humans. especially some one i fall in love with... i had invested too many feelings and time.. now its time to think differently..
im not going to be the past lijuan to love you more than myself.
i wanna love myself even more this time round.

although we are still together, i have to say that.. i have pull out some of the feelings in it.. i dun wan to be planted too deep and could not plug it out again..

pple, wish me good luck..

Army open house 09

2009-09-05T00:13:00.010+08:00

hello maomao! morning ate mac breakfast and headed to take mrt ( serangoon to outram to boonlay) Im going to ARMY OPEN HOUSE 2009 :D

saw a lot of those tanks la.. army soliders use de.. wa.. so HUGE.. inside more complicated..o.o went to have fun in different worlds.. explore some nice ones with dar :D got people singing to entertain us even ! LOL..and i got my favourite candy floss ! :p

headed to action world.. k9 dog show was one of my favourite! wow.. golden retriver,Labrador Retriver,german shepherd.. nice!!! they are really well trained :) know how to sniff drugs, explosive bombs.. etc.. one of them even know how to run over a fire ring!!! o.o im craving for more performance from them !!! :D

finally one was the live firing.. was a gd experience too.. see how they fire and was super loud , we had ear plugs provided! even took a group photo with the group :) i enjoy that crazy ride in the lorry :)

ate at boon lay mrt den took 157 to toa payoh.. was abt 1 hour ride ? i fall asleep of course! =x

haha..and we got our favourites rojak and ice blend strawberry and headed to enjoy our
scenery.. dar fall asleep on my lap.. and im enjoying my sight seeing of my lovely stars and moon :D i sing too.. LOL..

was a nice nice day and we are real tired :D

La La LA Doraemon

2009-09-04T01:03:00.006+08:00

hello maomao! today met dar around 4pm..!! so late right? haha.. coz we slept at 4am last night :) went to toa payoh to eat (set 6 and youtiao salad ) then go back home le...

at dar house, watch 门徒..nice nice nice! crazy us play till very mad jus now..!!! haha.. mao mao cannot imagine de la =x very very crazy.. really.. haha..

coz we only had one meal jus now.. we went hungry again lol... thus we ate mac.. and i got my happy meal with doraemon! i love doraemon coz

小叮当帮我实现所有的愿望 haha.. those chinese pple tat watch before know wat i meant :):)

i had a crazy night with my crazy baby ~

same old problem again

2009-09-03T03:47:00.000+08:00

hallo mao! yeah.. today stay home and cook myself noodles.. haha.. i enjoy it! ai ya.. forgot to take picture to show you =x next time sure take ok? haha LOL

yup. when chinatown to meet dar and his dad.. shop around and he got his things...bleh bleh bleh...

hmm..maybe im askin too much ?

im awake till now.. better go sleep early :)

maybe we are not mature enough~

TOuched

2009-09-02T00:43:00.003+08:00

Hello maomao! today afternoon dar called ask me open my house door.. saw him at my doorstep!o.o WAs SHOCKED! i was still upset wif him yesterday so i jus went back to my room to continue my sleep.. but i sudden recall.. was still rainin heavily and dar came wif bike.. so eventually went out to take a look at him.. saw him usin my hair dryer dryin his hair up..

felt so heartpain.. he was drenched due to the heavy rain.. although im still upset, i bring him my bro shirt and change for him.. coz i dun wan him to fall sick..

so dar apologised and hug me. seeing him here and drenched while comin over to find me my heart already melted.. how would i still bear to upset him lei?

at night we went to shop and save to buy lychee (can dessert) and mashmellow :) :) haha! my favourites.. hope dar enjoy it too.. headed to cake shop to get egg tart also :D haha! we ate a lot ar.. im super super full !!!!!!!!!! =o

I got headache again.. BUT not becoz i think too much ar.. but jus felt dizzy and wanna faint.. interupt dar while he was playin and ask him help me up! really sick.. den i got dar to apply oil on me and felt better ..even now still a bit headache..

haiz

2009-09-01T03:26:00.003+08:00

mao.. ya.. happy or sad this is the place where i can throw everything here..how should i put it? i hav tons of unhappy things or troubled..........and i dunno when i can solve all...
im all alone right now and yes i will tell and force myself to be strong.. yeah,im sure i can do it well..
im losin hope ,losin my heart,losin my confidence,losing my own self....
i used to be a strong gal.. i duno since when im getting weaker and weaker..
i want to put a strong front, i dun wan my friends to worry abt my problem.. how should i say? im getting speechless every now and then ..its a bit draggy this post cause i dunno how to put my emotions into words and tell maomao abt it..

its hard to be me,and you wun wan to be me ... really..
i miss my own smile already , i miss myself.. ya.. sound stupid but i really do miss the past me.. laugh like crazy joke like mad gal..

sudden feel pain.. everywhere..i dun even know how i injured my elbow.. it hurts right now..
alone in the living room.. dunno..

i dunno how should i feel or how should i react or feel... i feel so upset wif myself.. i dun even know whether i am able to sleep soundly later..

seriously need a hug or a pat.. any one will do..

im left alone again in the night withour havin somebody.....
nite mao.. shall be starin into air on my bed now......................
dun wish to see anybody at this moment................................
我不会爱.................................

Doctor

2009-08-31T21:02:00.000+08:00

Hello maomao! today bring dar to see doctor as he injured his joint (spine muscle). It was located at ang mo kio ave4 ,Dr Quek. A very good doctor i should say.. haha.. tats why i recommended dar to him.
I guess it is not so serious as I believe Dr quek will cure dar asap.Dr quek asked if he needs injection, dar hesisted but i know it is good for him so i told Dr quek to inject him. LOL.

yeah..pardon me coz i really dislike naggin people, as my parents dun really nag at me so at times i really get piss off by naggings and naggings.. imagine u got to asnwer at least 20 over questions after you reach home.. its really irritating and tiring to listen and entertain it.Nevertheless,I know ya mum was caring so really pardon me if i show my temper..

hope dar recover fast,god bless him :)

bad mood

2009-08-30T18:34:00.000+08:00

Hello maomao, writing here now coz im freakin not in the good mood.. i dun wish to say out the whole thing but im jus freakin havin no mood for anythin.. seriously freak out i dunno which term to use to descibe everything..
i jus wan to say today is a FREAKIN DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Baby Magdeline and Prawn fishing

2009-08-29T23:47:00.002+08:00

Hello maomao! morning i received a call. Aunt told me korkor got baby le! i mean his wife gave birth! haha!! was so excited to see new born baby so i agreeed to meet my aunt :)

Before setting off, dar accompany me for lunch. He buy my fried rice to my house and we eat together:) he is always so caring for me :) he even sent me off to met station. thanks baby!

meet aunt at yew tee and we took a cab to Gleneagles Hospital . This is my first time visiting newborn baby and im so nervous =x haha.. so eventually i went up wif my aunt and we headed to see the baby gal :P

waited for about 20 mins before baby was push to the room as the nurse was feeding her.. she was so tiny and cute! i dun dare to carry her and take picture coz i scare i wake her up. I can see that the nurses is havin a hard time feeding her ar.. she doesen want to eat but sleep :P haha!

Night time meet dar ,dad,sis,thomas(sis bf) for prawn fishing.. me and dar din fish but chat there. after all, i enjoy this little time wif them :) as i was not feelin well, me and dar leave the place first. Dar send me to bus stop using his bike.. haha.. so fast and exciting!

then i went up the bus and dar ride back.. see him ride so fast , must be tirred.. thanks dar for the effort ..

yeah one thing i want to tell maomao, i hope dar did not lied to me . He told me before that no one has sit on his bike. If i were to find out the truth, i guess everything will vanish ...

Cards from sayangs

2009-08-29T00:39:00.008+08:00

Hello mao mao! these are the cards from my sayangs:) One is from sayang Q and the other is from sayang sheirin :) im gonna miss them :)

Dinner at breeks

2009-08-29T00:22:00.010+08:00

Hello maomao! its been a few days and im missing you :)finally i finished my first sem!!! im super duper happy!:) means i have more rest and more time for myself alrady!! wooh!!! but only last about 5 weeks? :( i wish it was longer..

This is the pic which me and dar join sayangs for dinner at breeks!!(harbonfront)

simple day,yet fun

2009-08-23T23:56:00.008+08:00

HEllo Maomao!!!
today i met dar during afternoon time,he came and fetch me :) Headed to get mee kia ,lunch for dar..super crowded.. waited like 20 mins? haha! then we are back home.. we was playin wif our webcam haha!! and took some funny pics! :D
at home, but i did enjoy myself playin here and there!

Felt a bit unwell later not sure why.. my head was spinnin and i jus felt very uncomfort. I told dar i wanna rest on his bed ..off i go try to zzz..dar then took 风油 and apply it on my forehead.. felt rather comfortable then..

Had westen for dinner and the standard dropped.. not that nice le.. next time dun eat liao..

but then, at night my stomach was very pain.. haha.. so many problems ar.. hurhur =x

dar slept a while coz he very tired.. i then use lappy ..and its time to go back to my home.. i got to wake him up..haha! dardar send me home straight when he was awake.. thanks dar.im afraid to go back at night ..:)

A simple day,yet i find myself felt love :)

hope everything getting better each day, 加油，杨丽娟

My date with dar

2009-08-23T01:36:00.002+08:00

MAO!! today e three of us met of lunch ..myself,cas and dar.. had duck rice and fried rice.. cas went to meet her frens and i accompany dar to the petrol station..was very hot!! burning!! but its okay:)

Due to this super hot weather.. we brought ice blend green apple and grape!
i was very tiired and i rest on dar bed.. when dar hug me tight..this is a feeling that i feel safe and secure inside..

at night, although we had dinner at home le.. dar still bring me out :) thanks dar.. i know you dote me.. bring me out :) we took 147 and went to BKT! only order one drink,one veggie ,one bowl of rice and one bowl of 排骨汤..we shared..:) dar give me his share of meat..:) thank baby! every little bit of food left, we shared as one..

This is Love~~<3

headed to fat bird once again.. brought chocolate chip and rasberry ice cream:) then we go merlion dere.. sit and play around.. its nice.. just havin simple life and because it is US, we are happy!
I chase dar along the way back.. haha.. =x

dar hungry and brought durain ice cream.. we talk so girlish to the uncle.. until uncle smiling..LOL.. we are naughty ones!! :D:D

took 100 back as usual and chat along the way..this time round i din sleep :P dar sent me back and i din want him to go back so he accompnay me a while more longer.. we sat down and i help dar message on the head..we chat about the msg dar sent while the incident happens.. dar was like a child.. yang ou with me :) sayang sayang dar...

爱，就是要我和你....

Smile

2009-08-23T00:25:00.005+08:00

Hello maomao!This would be my Fri post! =x

friday after school,i was meeting sayangs for lunch ,but in the end dar came over. He wanted Popeyes at Airport. So i told sayangs that we going off..:( haha.. im sorry!

Both dar and me were naughty.. we say each other..haha.. he knows la.. wat im saying.. in the train den i surrender to him..I say 'sorry'. Dar u know i dun mean it :)we took train to airport.although the journey was long.. i still enjoy having dar by my side.. crapping around ..

My first time taking train to airport!! im like a mountain turtle.. wow here and there =.= pardon me ar =x we were dying of hunger when we reached!! so we chiong to POpeyes straight :) i love it!! super nice la!! i wan go again!! dar was so sweet la, feed me again and again.. i feel loved once again :) maomao.. shhh.. i saw dar friends.. ziyang came to over to say hi ..

Headed to NTUC..where the fun moment came... dar took a can of sprite and put it on my cheek!! was very very very cold lor =.= The cold can make one shiver de!! i din wan to lose to dar.. so i just pick any of the chill can drinks and i force it to put on dar's neck.. :) haha.. he shiver !! dar always win me de.. not fair..:( we were like kids playing there despite pple around..i just enjoy it! its been too long since we behave like kids.. and its like so kiddish and fun..just pure innocent kids :) i miss those days. and this particular moment of fun... brings me back again..we went to the place where we could see plane depart from here.. yeah.. i still prefer the other terminal where dar bring me to when we just got together..

this is the place where our memories are.. Just you and me

finally we left and we took 53.. we were listenin songs and i fall asleep each time :) dar shoulder just attracts my head from stickin to it..haha! but this time i think im real tired everyday.. so i slept till i drool..my first time sleep till like tat..=x

we were back to home(dar house) and I plan to meet cas,my childhood fren.My silly boy wanted to keep me accompany.. so i took 105 to toa payoh and he ride there..my heart was pumping

fast..coz i know it is very dangerous for dar to ride along the road.. and i saw dar along the way while i was in bus.. i just want him to be safe :) so dar be careful pls..

Note: this is the first stop dar ride later u know more (serangoon to toa payoh interchange)

so i meet cas and we went library.. and dar came over to join us.. I brought my favourite Rojak and we went mac to eat :) crap again.. and the three of us was happy :D cas came over to my house to stay over :) so we got to go her house to take her clothes..

So dar ride from toa payoh to whampoa drive blk 97 (my old house) this is the second stop..

after that. we went to bus stop.. took 139 and dar ride again.. as he dunno the way.. he got to follow bus 139 carefully..

From whampoa back to toa payoh which is the third stop..

on the way, dar saw another 139.. he tot was the one that we are inside.. he folloW!! luckily i called him.. my silly boy then faster U turn back..im so afraid I lost him on the way...

we walked and cas and me volunteer to carry his bike while climbing up the bridge.. i knew it was tough for dar..:)

FINALLY , LAST STOP toa payoh back to serangoon.. dar today cross over the expressway.. im very worried..hope dar dun do it again..

dar..thanks for the effort and you accompany me the whole night.. im felt blissful.. u are scare to cross that dark road.. but to catch up wif the bus.. you overcome it..:)

My dar,黄伟杰,NUMBER 1 !! ABOVE THE BEST! He was faster than all the buses when i was in..:D:D:D

加油，杨丽娟

2009-08-20T23:33:00.000+08:00

Hello mao mao! im here.. these few days very tired so i din come :) hehe.. i have been watching movie with dar three times this week already.. im enjoying it! hee.. dar even brought Yan yan for me to eat,there is so much more to share,so much more to love..

today i went to dar house after sch..hee.. dar cook my favourite soup again.. but today de not up to standard..i still feel loved..we dunno need to add milk or not.. coz the instruction says add one can of milk? dunno wat milk, so we took HL milk =.= haha.. not so nice as before.. but i still enjoy cookin section :D dar is so cute,he says sorry to me coz the soup not really nice.. it does not matter to me de la..

i must be really good each day.. yeah.. i must try and try..

i miss the days going to fat bird there to chat..dar should know what im saying.. its been so long since we last went.. hopefully one of the holiday i could go there.. i love enjoying beautiful scenery with my love one..sitting there we chat,joke and laugh.. life seems so simple and nice ..

oh ya! before i forget, today dar join me and SAYANGS for lunch.. was so fun and enjoyable.. i hope dar enjoy himself too.. we ate and joke.. haha.. sayangs was so funny la.. i laugh till got tears liao..=x

-it is not how long your relationship counts,but its how deep and committed are for the both parties :)
有缘份就要珍惜，你知道吗？

TIRED

2009-08-20T16:27:00.000+08:00

maomao~~
mon-where got ghost?
tues-District 9
wed-Orphan
haha.. three movies this week..im getting poorer liao..haha..overall,i enjoyed it :):)

not feeling well

2009-08-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

maomao....i havin headache again... i feel discomfort.. i have so much to say but when it comes to listing all out.. im speechless...
i wish i could vanish all these..sry everybody.........

WHERE GOT GHOST???

2009-08-17T20:52:00.000+08:00

Mao mao!! morning bad mood :( i wish you were there to comfort me :) ya.. time is all i can rely on.. I saw sayang THAHIRAH! and i was with her coz i jus dun wan to stay at the place that make me feel uncomfort .. alight at rp bus stop and i walk with sayang.. jus walk walk walk... i jus wanna escape for that moment..

mood swings in class.. sayangs all know :) they sayang me :) thanks sayang! love love!

run off during second meeting.. wif dar and frens to watch WHERE GOT GHOST??? nice!!! funny and a bit scary .. thumb up :P had mac and strawberry sundae :))

im getting naughtier each day :)

i dunno how long to recover......

Realize

2009-08-16T13:28:00.002+08:00

just a little post of my thoughts...

yeah..a mistake seems so small has a big impact..when you realize of your decision too late, everything has already taken its place..not only the people invovle get hurt..people around you feel hurt for you..when we already build a good relationship ties with family.. everything spolits..it takes a min for u to change everything ya? a min of uncertaincy everything changes.. jus a split second.. it is jus like a virus.. the longer you take,the more people gets affected..everything is back to zero.. everything has to restart all over again...

a little note for people out there

If you are still doubtful of whether is it worth to love the person beside you.. dun hestiate already..usually the person who hurts you the most,the one that always quarrel with you.. are your love ones..
A new love is always seems so attractive,so cute, make u feel so love, while the old love seems so boring,nothing interest you...its because.. you are still new to your new love, they haven hurt you and you dunno them yet.. thus you think that they are as good as what you think..
unknowingly your old love is the one that will love you as the way you are.. you treat everything your old love give to you as for granted..
so.. stop asking whether who is your miss right/mr right.. love the one that is beside you..cherishin you unknowingly..
last but not least,NEVER REGRET YOUR CHOICE. when you had already make a final decision... you can't change it already.. you may lost the person for your rest of your life...
this is not like you buy items for shop, can exchange within 7 days with receipt... :)

movie today

2009-08-16T00:19:00.004+08:00

Hello maomao! today i woke up around 2 pm!!!! wa.. i din know i slept till so long... i must be tired i guess... meet dar for lunch at my house downstaris..fried rice and duck rice.. then headed to buy Grape ice blend.. inside lift.. dar drop in on the floor.. we merely drink for like 2 slips? haha.. wasted..we sad sad :(

dar accompany me home coz its still early to go for my movie wif family.. around 7 dar left.. to bath and get ready to his biking~ hAHA.. i went to train station around 7.30 and dar meet me on the way..:)

movie today was G.I.JOE! was quite nice..thumb up for this :P dar biking must be super tired la.. serangoon to east coast den fullerton back to serangoon again..

你知道你有罪...
拈花惹草是你 ,罪让我承受
让我伤心是你 ,痞子无赖是你
又是你让我这罪人感到心灰意冷
就罚你唱情歌说话别大声你错你承认
痛苦我喊不出声我背已转身
你看到我伤痕才知道你错你有多么残忍.....

tired day

2009-08-15T02:28:00.001+08:00

Hello mao mao!! today morning my family accompany my mum to hospital for a check up :)
sch as usual jus that today free seating!! wooh!! last lesson of maths with faci jason..LOL..
grouped with sayangs , isabelle,wanni,Q,fiza,drew.. was rather fun day with them :)

After sch, dar waited for me and we walk to interchange.. he bully me again :( i bite him to take revenge :) haha!! nonsense through out the journey! yeah! thats me!! decided to go toa payoh for ROJAK!! yummy!! and i went to library for toliet.. this place was so familar ... we had a number of memories here..and i jus recall the past memories in the past i had wif dar..everything seems so perfect ya? how i wish my mind stored only beautiful memories..?
After having ROJAK, gosh! i stomach pain =x wanna go library toliet again.. haha.. dar went to 2nd floor to look for magazine.. when i went up, i cannot find him :( i called him and he was hiding!!! soo bad... haha.. when walkin out of the entrance,he hide again.. due to my limit of height i could not spot him :( and he laughed! LOL

got sundae strawberry at mac:) hee.. delicious! i got dar to feed me :) i went home instead coz mum was alone.. slept a while and accompany her to amk ave 6 clinic... BUT!! closed! haha.. in the end,mum jus ate a fish soup and we went home taking train... we were sayin... we go all the way to amk jus to eat fish soup!!! =.=

around 1am, dar called and asked me down. He brought mac to share? haha.. he buy SHAKER FRIES my love again~ hee...X) chatted throughout...~~ send me home due to his stomach upset ..haha..

maomao, its another day again.. I still could not wash away the sadness,the doubt...
it would be a beautiful tale if the witch did not come by.. i will be the happiest princess living happily with my prince.. but the fact is not always beautiful.. i ate the poison apple, although prince save me from it,i still have the phobia eating apple and the witch that come and mess up my life. Prince was once caught in witch hands.. finally he is released.. prince assure me that witch will not come again.. but he was caught in her hands once...
will my beautiful tale continue?

My comment from maths faci (Jason)

2009-08-14T14:21:00.001+08:00

Hi Lijuan,I know that today has been tough for you. You had totally no mood for learning or doing work, and I cannot blame you for it. However since not much learning is done, I will still give you a grade of "D".

The flower I give you is Camellia, which stands for graciousness. You are someone that is endearing, always considerate and kind-hearted.

My first D.....

Sick

2009-08-13T22:55:00.007+08:00

Hello mao mao!! today i did not go sch.. coz when i was awake..my whole body ache,mentally im very sick,physically tired..so i called dar and told him that i dun wish to attend sch today.. and..he follow!!! haha!!!

afternoon we met for lunch.. eat mee kia and wanton noodle :) NICE! then dar went to photocopy and went to the bank..i was staring at the cisco and he look at me ask'' you have something to ask''? haha.. i was like =.= no! haha..we then went shop and save buy chips and drink..lalala..XD

at dar house.. we watch 无间道III and dar keep disturb me =.= .. abt to finish he want to sleep again.. haha.. he is always craving for sleep!!! and then i watch my own show.. not sure the title but got andy lau inside.. do stupid thing like play pet society.. till he was awake.. and i hav to keep disturb him to make him awake....

night time.. we went to buy N and B bread and beancurb .. den shaker fries again!!:) :) settle down at badminton court and enjoy our meal :) we finished and was chattin half way through den come a BEE! we ran away for our lives!!!!! haha! got strawberry ice blend and went to 11th floor to enjoy beautiful scenery..haha.. we play pearls and was fun.. i force dar to dance for me.. and was so so funny lor!!!! =D

another tired day.. my mind jus cant rest..
maomao.. wind can blow dust away,leaves and watever rubbish.. why jus cant it blow away my memories..? if only we can choose and decide which memories stays in our mind and which memories we just jus forget it clean....

Another day

2009-08-12T21:47:00.005+08:00

Hello mao mao!! i try to make it to a point whereby everynight i visit you here ok? hehe..
you are just like my listener of the day! and its free! haha...
sch as usual today,morning i saw sayang 'green colour' behind eugune! and I frighten her as always :)
morning no mood swings.. well, its a good thing, i try to maintain but no guarantee..lunch time dar came over for a min.. its another gd thing coz i buy him waffle in the morning! haha.. fair la..he brought $7 windbreaker.. quite nice..and its white! haha!

webcam during class... fun and nice.. saw eugune and ziyang.. funny people! yeah.. i hope my laughter can last..
today choing communication for the last time.. overall still can manage .. drew is damn stress i know..:)although im the only gal inside the team but i still think we did well:) thanks pple for the effort!

after sch, walk with fiza and dar frens.. yeah.. i dun wish to mention all names.. =.= i love crappin with sayang fiza.. feel more relax and less tense.. yeah.. sooner or later im goin to suffer mental problem....no mac and shaker fries today, me and dar went all the way to simei to buy handle bar.. i dun mind travellin seriously.. no matter how far the distance is.. i dun mind.. yeah.. when the person meant a lot to me, i can give myself to him.. sweat a lot and si mei sun was super strong and the drain also super smelly =x very tired i admit.. but dar happy i dun mind..

went back to the place i used to work (suffer) haha.. and the place change a lot!!! so nice and spacious!! i like! some of the people there stil working.. and i say hi :) haha.. they still remember this noisy gal.:) i saw cute pups! omg! falling in love with them.. especially ''Shih Tzu'' got 2 females.. one black and white and the other was a mix brown! im faintin la.. the black and white so so so CUTE!!!!like panda lor :):) falling in love .......

Leaving the shop, took train back.. to tampines and change to 81.. was sleepin like a pig in bus and dar disturb me here and there.. i got angry and throw tantrum as usual..haha.. im tired.. cannot blame.. brought my standard grape ice blend :)
and i accompany dar home.. see him fix handle bar and all..

ya.. dar gets tired of naggin i know.. relax..:) sry i no power to push you now..

maomao.. when can i recover? i dunno how long i could hold on...how i wish i got a 时光机.. bring me back to the time when i was stupid enough to quarrel with dar...if that day we did not quarrel.. will things get better?
or should i say.. if its meant to happen.. there is no way i can run away from it? i also dunno..
once bitten,twice shy.
twice bitten? not shy??

btw,maomao.. i got back my necklace le..
i will come back anytime when i need to talk.. byes~~~~

tired

2009-08-11T22:55:00.005+08:00

Hello maomao!!! im back here to flood you with all my saliva! =X
sch as usual.. but morning mood swings again? yeah.. im always like tat after since that incident ....horrible right? i know.. i trying hard to control..sry pple especially dar and eugune.. mornin got to see a black face! chatted with dar on msn once i reach class..yeah..he knows im still affected by the incident.. he wants to help me but provided i am willing to walk out from it.. i know.. but i seriously need plenty of time.I dun wan a split personality jus like wat dar mention.. im tired of thinking,tired of worrying,tired of not being happy enough.. i dun wan to cause friends around me to get affected and i will tell myself to control and control.. Dar and friends.. pls pls pardon me ok:)

After sch,dar,eugune and ziyang came and wait for me..haha.. funny people makes me laugh :D me ,dar and eugune walk to causeway point coz im hungry again!haha.. we ate mac coz we simply love SHAKER FRIES ! HAHA! i dunno this is number wat pack for eugune liao.. he has been eating so many man.. haha.. we all love SHAKER FRIES! :D

I went home instead of going to dar house coz he is always sleepin:(haha.. but its okay i understand..went home and i slept..but woke up a bit here and there.. i just cant rest well. oh gosh! im flood with housework and troubles!!!

maomao.. im tired.. real tired.. but im glad i have dar,eugune,sayangs..
they make me laugh ,thanks pple! :P

bring me away...from here...
tired of saying tired..im tired of being me...
mao mao.....save me pls.................................

My day with dar

2009-08-11T00:03:00.003+08:00

hello mao mao!! :) i should address you mao since this is maomao-lijuan .blogspot.com. HAHA!!
mao mao the name specially for me. :) woke up around 12 plus and dar called me over to had my lunch. We had ber( porridge in hokkien) and dar went back to sleep till 4plus! haha.. he was very tired i understand.so i watch channel8 drama lo.. till he was awake and all the while i was disturbing him hur hur =x

we were discussin to go airport to hav popeyes but due to some reasons we change our plan :( i was a bit disappointed however,we headed to Newton circus!!! happy la!! this is one of the place we used to go,after since the incident,this is the first time we are back again..memories flash back in my mind and everything since its in their place,the prawn noodle uncle was there,the stalls ,the drinks.. so much more.. as usual, we order prawn noodle. Uncle was very nice jus like e past,friendly :) when he asked whether we want to add chilli power, we said yes.. in e end, we got to order few more cups of drinks in order to finish the noodle..haha!

Half way through,dar brought rojak! one of my favourite.i dunno if its dar favourite..dar says its weird coz of the sauce like a bit orange colour..haha, but to me the rojak still taste as delicious :D
went back to toa payoh cause i forgot to buy shampoo..hee =x lucky i did not get scoldin from dar..Laugh and joke around like nobody busniess.. yeah.. thats me :D

buy a lychee lce blend which was weird to me coz a bit too powerish to me le :( on our way back, i slept on dar shoulder..AND!!! SIS AND THOMAS WAS THERE!!!LOL.. when they get down den we know.. but i was sleepin like a pig, only dar knows.. haha.. funny! inside bus but dunno ..LOL!!!

watch hong kong movie with dar.. i enjoy it too:) den 10.30..INCREDIBLE TALES!! dar afraid to watch alone ask me watch with him..haha,timid boy! =x wanna go home liao den dar say that he is afraid to be home alone ,so i accompany him till his mum came back ..send me home usin GT :P

i need time to recover,i dunno how long i will take..
pardon me coz im too afffected and hurt
its vey tough for me and i will try,meanwhile pls dun rush me
try try try..very hard to forget the pain ...
i think i can?

Happy National Day!!

2009-08-09T22:13:00.004+08:00

Hello!! im back with my second post? haha.. lame =.=
morning was suppose to meet dar and his parents to go bugis and pray but i cant wake up coz was chatting with Ling for 2 hrs! until 3.30am !!o.o
haha. so i called him and told him that i cant make it..when i was awake,i saw ashley gal sleeping beside me...so sweet of her!! :D
Woke up around 12 plus,had my bath and met dar..

He cycle and we went to get GRAPE AND STRAWBERRY ICE BLEND! Our favourite? Everyday a cup keeps doctor away!!! yeah!
headed to buy carrot cake $3!! so much la.. but dar finish all..still so skinny!!! we was waiting for national day parade so to pass time we watch movie. BABP PLAN ( by louis koo and cheng long) the baby was so adorable la,innocent and cute!! We love it! XD

National day parade was goin to start so dar call pizza hut delivery. OVERWHELMING ORDER???!!! they cant take in our order!:( so dar mood was spolit of course. But he tried online order.. also cant,it refresh to the page where we need to enter our add.. saying that did not deliver to our postal code!! WA!! sian liao lor..

We then watch national day parade show.. half way through.. Ding Dong~!! PIZZA HUT DELIVERY WAS HERE??!! WTH???!! They did not inform us that they could take in our order and they jus deliver like tat??!! SO IRResponsible lor! Of course dar mum was angry la.. jus deliver as they wish when the online and phone call already say cant take in order..But nvm,at least dar mood was back!! :)

Thanks dar parents for the pizza and dessert:) I very full liao!! :D dar was sleepin coz he woke up early this morning to go temple..

Feelings

Sometimes I wish I could rewind the time
Sometimes I wish nothing happen
Sometimes I wish I was forgiving enough
Sometimes I wish I was muture enough
Sometimes I wish I was understanding enough
Sometimes I want to stop everything
Sometimes I want to escape

Bored!

2009-08-09T00:44:00.002+08:00

Hello!!!

haha,my first post! was very bored at home so tot of making a blog lo! today dar went biking at tampines trail,we met in e morning to have breakfast den off he go~~~~~
I was alone with my ashley gal and keaven boy till i meet dar around 8 plus..Standard la, we ate the economic noodles!! LOL. Interchange got pasa malum? dunno if i spell correct.. so we went to get my favourtite cup corn!! nice LA! haha.. where got food inside my mouth is not nice de lei? =X Headed to buy Grape ice blended..yummy!!!
den at dar house use his com,he was so so tired ,after he had his bath.. he slept liao..
but.. i got to wake him up lei.. coz i wanna go home.. he hardly can open his eyes ar : told him i can go back myself but he insists sending me home using GT! LOL..haha..

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY !!!
thanks to this national day that falls on sun..:) MON NO SCH!!! WOW!!! o.o

byebye, i go sleep liao lo :D:D:D