hi mao, this week has been my busiest week coz im concern about my mum and im taking care of her. Im glad that she is now at home recuperate and i hope everything goes well.

so today,bro fetch me from home to SGH to bring mum back home. she looks fine and we both are less worry for her. Bro got her bird nest to drink :) shes sleeping soundly now. i suppose these few days she hardly rest.

sch is starting soon and i feel so werid. Both gd and bad memories are there inside RP. :/ well, god bless me hurhur ...its jus feel uneasy and its 4 months im still trying to get out of it. Reopening of sch does not excites me coz i can imagine myself feeling so tired every morning and restless spirit in me. Im flood with sch stress,relationship stress, perhaps even friends. oh my oh my.. i jus dun wish to start sch... anyway, i still got a long long way.
inside bro car, listening to familiar songs.. going through the tunnel at the expressway back home.Lots and lots of memories are flashin through..happy and sad ones that i once went through.I knew i got to be extra strong each time when setbacks come looking for me.
Sometimes i jus wonder, why? why things jus happen ? i was thinking.. is it planned already?
hmm.. gd question with no answer =x
i tell myself, hey ! u got to be stronger and stronger! lijuan should be a strong one that will not defeat by setbacks! yes im sure i can :)

im starting to be afraid of that feeling..a feeling which i cannot really describe. i jus knew , it is smth like suddenly by one day, the world changes. ya. thats how i feel. its like disaster that happens too sudden and im not prepare for it.Thinking back, im surprise i could survive till now.. haha!!